Storage Full

I dont really know where to start. My brain is very similar to my iPhone right now. When I unlock my phone, the “Storage Full” notification pops up to let me know my phone has reached its fullest capacity of retaining information. I can’t take any pictures, download new apps or even view incoming e-mails. And as annoying as that “Storage Full” message is, it’s kind of relevant to my week. My mind has reached its fullest capacity and I can’t receive anything new until I unload the unnecessary junk.

It was ten o’clock at night as I wrote that previous paragraph. My husband was attempting to console our baby girl and put her back to bed. I finished writing the last sentence as Brenner came rushing into our room asking for back up. Isabelle was pretty worked up so I went in to give it a try. Forty-five minutes later and she finally fell sleep. My initial plan was to immediately go to sleep myself and catch as many zzz’s as I could before she woke again. But as I closed my eyes I felt the tug on my soul from the Holy Spirit to talk to Him first.

Opening up the Word to my next chapter in the book of John, I felt another tug to instead turn to my next Psalm. Psalm 77 it is then! The first stanza was so closely connected to my present internal state that I had to literally breathe it in over and over again:

“I cried out to God with my voice— To God with my voice; And He gave ear to me. In the day of my trouble I sought the Lord; My hand was stretched out in the night without ceasing; My soul refused to be comforted. I remembered God, and was troubled; I complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed. Selah” (Psalms‬ ‭77:1-3‬ ‭NKJV‬‬)

God reminded me that my overwhelmed mind was in need of crying out loud to the only One who can empty my soul. So I complained to Him for a while, and He continued to meet me where I was as I read further along:

“You hold my eyelids open; I am so troubled that I cannot speak. I have considered the days of old, The years of ancient times. I call to remembrance my song in the night; I meditate within my heart, And my spirit makes diligent search.” (Psalms‬ ‭77:4-6‬ ‭NKJV)

While there wasn’t something terribly wrong with me, per se, I was still troubled in my soul. My mind was overwhelmed with previous conversations, what could’ve been or should’ve been, thoughts, images, future plans, and present tasks. We all experience these moments of “Storage Full”, and God wants to help. We don’t have to live our entire lives in a perpetual state of overwhelmed and stressed out. (And just a thought: as believers in Christ, do we point others to Jesus when we are that way?)

I believe that is what David is trying to explain in this Psalm. As his “Storage Full” notification popped up, David’s method of wiping the slate clean was remembering all the good that God did for him in the past.

There is real power in remembering God.

Moving on to Psalm 77:10-12, David continuously talks about remembering:

“but I will remember the years of the right hand of the Most High. I will remember the works of the LORD; Surely I will remember Your wonders of old. I will also meditate on all Your work, And talk of Your deeds.”

Meditating on all of the miracles that God has done for us is a flipping of the switch in our brains. “Less of me and more of Him”. It might take some internal repeating of God’s works..

“God saved me from death through Jesus when I was 18 so He’s got me now.”

“God gave my son a heart beat so He’ll take care of him now.”

..but remembering God’s truth really does transform your mind and fill you with peace. Remembering God’s works is the recipe for perseverance in faith.

These final two verses pierced my heart the most because they describe my present season to a “T”:

“Your way was in the sea, Your path in the great waters, And Your footsteps were not known. You led Your people like a flock By the hand of Moses and Aaron.” (Psalms‬ ‭77:19-20‬ ‭NKJV‬‬)

God has parted the sea for me. Now here I am standing in the middle of a deep sea with two towering walls of water on either side of me. I don’t know where I’m going because God’s footsteps are unknown before me, but I do know where I’ve been. And I know if God parted this sea for me, He will surely lead me through it.

I don’t know where you’re at mentally, physically or spiritually. I don’t know what tomorrow holds for you; but I do know this, there are countless miracles God has performed, is performing, and will perform in your life right this second. Open your eyes to see Him, open your ears to here Him, open your heart to receive Him. Remember His great works so that your faith is rock solid and your endurance is infinitely lengthened. He’s got you. Press on.

Here is a link to a worship playlist I put together, filled with songs that have kept me remembering God’s good works despite my season of ‘unknown’: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3L0nMzcI59MgWYmkwQovg1kqUZ0Haz60

Waiting on the Promise

I can’t speak for the world, but I’m pretty positive that no one enjoys waiting. You might enjoy whatever you do to keep your mind off of waiting, but the lengthy process itself is almost never fun.

Think about Moses and the Israelites’ 40 year trek through the wilderness. Time and time again we see the nation become ablaze with faith, and then falter due to the delayed process of entering the Promised Land. The toxic idea here being that God is taking so long to do what He said He would and therefore that must mean one of two things:  1) He forgot about me or 2) He is not God anymore. Both resulting in turning to other false gods for help.

It sounds harsh, but those are the doubtful thoughts that can develop out of impatience and a loss of endurance.

When we forget who God is, we believe the lie that He forgot about us. 

A loss of truth becomes a loss of faith.

To avoid going on a downward spiral to mental and physical chaos, you must counteract those lies with  truth. And if you’re already in that boat surrounded by disorder, let this be your reinstalled anchor of hope to the One who has never abandoned you.

God is still God. His plans are still good. Nothing and no one can stop the fulfillment of His promises

“‘And of all my sons (for the Lord has given me many sons) He has chosen my son Solomon to sit on the throne of the kingdom of the Lord over Israel. Now He said to me, ‘It is your son Solomon who shall build My house and My courts; for I have chosen him to be My son, and I will be his Father.Moreover I will establish his kingdom forever, if he is steadfast to observe My commandments and My judgments, as it is this day.’” – (2 Chronicles 28:5-7 NKJV)

God called David a man after His own heart (Acts 13:22). Despite his sinful ways, God chose David to be king of Israel. That alone is encouraging to the rest of us wretches saved by grace. In this passage, David discusses the promise God spoke to him regarding his son, Solomon, becoming the next king. David had many sons, but God promised Solomon to be heir of the throne. Solomon was a man born of David and Bathsheba whose very relationship was founded on adultery and murder. It wasn’t his fault, but according to the Law the sins of the father are passed down to the next generations (Dueteronomy 5:9). However, God is good and His mercy triumphs His judgment (James 2:13). What better way to show that, than to bring favor, blessings, riches and the Messiah out the line of sinful, yet repentant David? It all points to Jesus and what He has to offer us.

God is still a good God.

“Now Adonijah the son of Haggith exalted himself, saying, “I will be king.” And he prepared for himself chariots and horsemen, and fifty men to run before him.” – (1 Kings 1: 5)

Adonijah is one of Solomon’s many older brothers. A few verses later he is described as being ‘very handsome’. He’s older, he’s attractive, and he’s got more followers. So Adonijah sets himself up as king while David is laying in bed from his advanced, old age. Adonijah invites all of the brothers, not including Solomon, and all of the royal officials to his ‘I just usurped the throne‘ party.

Have you ever been left out by your family or friends? Solomon can relate! The Bible doesn’t talk about how Solomon feels here, but I can imagine it’s intimidated, doubtful and afraid. He doesn’t stand up for himself while his promised throne is sabotaged. He is guessed to be around 10-13 years old at the time and his mom, Bathsheba, goes to battle for him! Hooray for momma bears! Bathsheba tells David what Adonijah is doing, and David immediately swears Solomon to be the true king. He has Solomon anointed king and put on his own donkey to ride through town proclaimed as the true King.

“Then Zadok the priest took a horn of oil from the tabernacle and anointed Solomon. And they blew the horn, and all the people said, Long live King Solomon!And all the people went up after him; and the people played the flutes and rejoiced with great joy, so that the earth seemed to split with their sound.” – (1 Kings 1:39-40 NKJV)

God’s party for Solomon doesn’t compare to Adonijah’s party for himself. The pretender doesn’t stand against the real deal. The darkness can’t overcome the light. The lies will never overrule the truth

God’s promise for Solomon to be king was never compromised. Even when Adonijah appeared to be king in his place, God had a plan. Solomon didn’t have to lift a finger to combat his overthrown throne. God did the work for him.

Even when the odds seem against you, when everyone seems to have abandoned you, when the victory seems to be given to your enemy, the Lord is still at work on your behalf. Nothing and no one can stop the fulfillment of God’s promises in your life.

Regardless of what you see, don’t lose hope in the God who said He would move your mountains. You need only be still & have faith the size of a mustard seed. Surround yourself with Jesus-seeking people who will love you & fight for your behalf. Pray without ceasing. Don’t give up. Stay the course! Press in! The victory is yours.

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.”

‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭12:1-3‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Deep calls out to Deep

The Challenger Deep is the lowest known point on planet earth’s surface. Being over 35,700 feet deep, it is deeper than Mt. Everest is tall (the tallest mountain on earth). The pressure is so extreme that humans would be completely crushed upon entering this abyss! It’s nuts!

But it has an end; it can be measured. The Challenger Deep has a limit. On the other hand, the One who created this abyss that baffles the human mind and fascinates science is limitless. God is depthless.

And our deep calls out to His deep.

Now that’s pretty deep!

Let’s go ahead and dive right in to this.

*someone please appreciate my puns*

“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was without form, and void; and darkness was on the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters. Then God said, “Let there be light”; and there was light.”- (‭‭Genesis‬ ‭1:1-3‬ ‭NKJV‬)

The Hebrew word for ‘deep’ used here is tehom and it means confusion, empty place, without form, nothing, waste, vain or barren. The Challenger Deep doesn’t stand a chance against against this OG, limitless deep.

The Spirit of God floated over this dark, deep abyss and spoke light into the vast, endless depths, sparking an unstoppable transformation still evolving creation today.

God’s light overcame the darkness. God’s vast depths filled up the earth’s vast nothingness.

The created cannot outmatch the Creator.

The same applies to us.

“Deep calls to deep at the [thundering] sound of Your waterfalls; All Your breakers and Your waves have rolled over me.”-(PSALM‬ ‭42:7‬ ‭AMP‬‬)

David is really down here in Psalms 42. He is lonely and questioning God’s presence in his life. But he still has hope that the One who helped him before will respond to his cry now.

He uses the same word, tehom, to describe his soul’s depths.

Confusion, empty place, and waste land.

But see where our depths seem never-ending, where our emotions seem all-consuming, where our situations seem utterly encompassing..they can not compare to the true vastness of God.

Our deep calls out to God’s deep. It’s intimate and it’s real. We may not even be aware, but we are constantly sending distress signals to the Lord.

What’s even better is there IS always a response to our emergency calls! The Spirit of God is hovering over our depths and darkness.

What I hear when I read this, is that it applies to all people-both believers in Christ and non-believers. To all humans, He is constantly speaking light into the darkness, ready to form something out of our nothingness should we allow His light to resonate in our hearts.

He knows you. God hears your cries. Even the ones buried at the bottom of your self- the ones so painful they’ve been forgotten.

God is with you now, speaking light into the darkness, and wanting to form something beautiful out of the confusion.

Let God in.

See what Jesus has to offer your deep cries.

“”The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon Me, Because the LORD has anointed Me To preach good tidings to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, To proclaim liberty to the captives, And the opening of the prison to those who are bound; To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, And the day of vengeance of our God; To comfort all who mourn, To console those who mourn in Zion, To give them beauty for ashes, The oil of joy for mourning, The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; That they may be called trees of righteousness, The planting of the LORD, that He may be glorified.” And they shall rebuild the old ruins, They shall raise up the former desolations, And they shall repair the ruined cities, The desolations of many generations.”- (‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭61:1-4‬ ‭NKJV‬)

Accept God’s great exchange from nothing to something, impossible to possible, ashes to beauty.
Your depths and the pressure that comes with them seem endless and overwhelming to you; but, like science, no depth can outmatch our limitless God. Hear His response to your cry.

Step outside of your home, feel the sun warm your face, and watch your eyes adjust to the brightness. Let Him do that to your soul, lighting up your worry and soothing your doubt.

He is there. He is light. He is love.
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References:

  • Hebrew definition for ‘deep’:

       “Deep.” Strong’s Exhaustive Concordance: New American Standard Bible, updated ed.,

Lockman Foundation, 1995. Bible Hub, http://www.biblehub.com