Love Ballad

“You are not a ‘thing’  to be put aside,

not even just for a night.

No, You are always here.

You are my air;

I breathe You in.

Your goodness, I will proclaim

and I won’t be ashamed

I am my Beloved’s

and He is mine.

Whatever comes against,

My God is for me.

Yes, You adorn me

with Your finest jewels

I surrender all to You.

I live my life for You.

It is the Greatest Love Story;

My God delights in me.

He is my Beloved

and I am His bride.”

– Lacey Sherrard 5/23/18

That ballad is the most recent song of deliverance that God has been continuously singing over me.

You are my hiding place;
You shall preserve me from trouble;
You shall surround me with songs of deliverance. Selah”
 (Psalm 32:7 NKJV)

The truth of who I am in the Kingdom of God doesn’t always reign in my heart, though it should. However in the midst of chaotic thinking, truth does come to the forefront of my mind much quicker than it once did. These words of love have been slowly penetrating my atmosphere over the course of the last few months. As I have began walking out onto deep waters, I have quickly discovered that my identity in Christ is my anchor amidst the rising and falling of the waves. I must know and believe that I am who God says I am every second of every day. Otherwise the lies of the enemy will counter that truth and suddenly I will find myself overwhelmed with toxic thoughts of fear, doubt, and hopelessness. That’s the kind of overwhelmed that keeps me stagnant.

On the contrary, have you ever been overwhelmed by the presence of the Lord? In the midst of worship during Pink Impact 2018 (Christian women’s conference), the Holy Spirit reminded me that I wanted to take my worship to the next level of surrender. He encouraged me to lay myself out onto the floor. Now I’m all about dancing and lifting my hands in worship, but that’s a whole new side of surrender that I had never done. Still I  figured why not do it anyway (Thanks, Lisa Harper )? So I dove head first (my friend’s words, not mine) to the ground in front of all these women. There I laid out with my face in the carpet, and I totally broke. I didn’t even know there was more of myself that could be broken off, but something broke and I lost it forever. Thank you Jesus! In that moment the amount of reverence I experience for the Most High God was overwhelming. His love versus my filth had never been more real. I saw a new depth of the price Jesus paid for my salvation. I saw a little clearer just how much love He has, though still not even close to the heights and depths of it all. My physical body was struggling even to breathe as I looked upon the Holy Lord. It was like diving off of a cliff into the ocean, and suddenly learning how to breathe the water instead of air. Intense.

I say that not to boast in me, but to boast in Christ! He is way more amazing, way more loving, way more EVERYTHING than we can even fathom. That’s the kind of overwhelmed I want to be. Not overwhelmed by the meaningless minute daily tasks, or the mental flood of lies, but completely consumed by JESUS! So hold every though captive that goes against Jesus. Obey every uncomfortable calling you hear God speak for you. Love unhindered. Set the world on fire with your Jesus flame.

That ballad of truth is keeping me burning with the Holy Spirit fire. The gospel truth tells us that we are the Bride of Christ, He loves us and He delivers us because He delights in us. Once you know who you really are, the game is over because the truth sets you FREE!

” Then Jesus said to those Jews who believed Him, “If you abide in My word, you are My disciples indeed.  And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” They answered Him, “We are Abraham’s descendants, and have never been in bondage to anyone. How can You say, ‘You will be made free’?” Jesus answered them, “Most assuredly, I say to you, whoever commits sin is a slave of sin. And a slave does not abide in the house forever, but a son abides forever. Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.” (John 8:31-36 NKJV)


 

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WRSHP

 

I’ve always been a singer. The proof is in my mom’s dusty VHS tapes where you can rewind back to me at the age of five, singing “Hit Me Baby One More Time” off key while holding my CD player in one hand and driving my barbie jeep with the other. Music is in my bones. It’s just a part of my make up, and I would almost go so far as to say music is in all of our bones (but I’ll ask God about that later because I have no idea).

Because music is who I am, more than just my emotions are affected by the words and sounds. I am physically moved by the music I listen to. In my teenage years, constantly listening to negatively influencing music kept me on a downward spiral. I was depressed, oppressed, hurt and angry. Depressing and angry music did nothing to help that. It took me a while to see that.

Back then, every night driving home after I finished doing whatever self-destructive activity I was doing, I would change my radio to the local Christian radio station. The songs literally gave me peace on my drive home. It was as if I could subconsciously feel my near death approaching due to the dangerous choices I was making and so I spent my drive home in literal terror.  Hearing the Godly music in my under-the-influence state, brought me into sound mind and made me feel safe.  Though I was by no means obeying the words of the songs that I was hearing, my spirit was being calmed and ministered to. It was a slow process, but eventually a change happened in me that could never be reversed. I surrendered my life to Jesus.

It is no coincidence that God would now have me minister in an area of darkness that Christ shined His light on. I have always loved singing, writing songs, and playing instruments; but at the same time, I was so terrified of performing. Intimidation, fear, striving for perfection and low self-worth/image have been my set backs for many, many years in a lot of areas of my life. But God has been completing the good work He started in me, and delivering me from those strongholds. He leaves nothing unfinished in us. Now I embrace my imperfections and submit to God’s training for me to be all that I can be through them. Right now, I am learning how to align my mind with me spirit; using my practical skills while also surrendering myself to the Holy Spirit’s power at work in me. There has been a huge transformation in this area of my life, and its all thanks to Jesus. Not by my might or my power, but by His spirit (Zechariah 4:6).

Over the past two years, a shift in my being has occurred. Worship has moved from being a hidden expression of music to an actual way of life. Praise and worship of the Father has become my exhale, yet somehow also my inhale, more connecting than words and more intimate than any physical touch. I can’t even really explain it in my own human descriptions because it is such a Heavenly thing. Worship is more than music and angelic voices . Praise and worship is a banner, a weapon of mass destruction against the darkness, a blanket in the winter.

I feel the fire burning with in me to help raise that banner up, to take up that sword, to clothe this cold, depressed world with Christ’s garment of praise. The walls of fear and intimidation have come crashing down, and my true identity in Christ now reigns in my body/mind/soul. There’s no going back from here.

My desire is to continue writing songs for God and about God to point the world to the One who changed my life (Psalm 40:3). My music is inspired by the Holy Spirit through God’s Word, and I hope to join the already occurring revival by getting my songs out to the world. It’s time for us as believers to rise up, to know who we really are, what we can do, and destroy the darkness with our Light! We all have giftings and callings, and God wants to partner with us to change the world. Instead of running from the lions..we can chase them and demolish them.

Walking out God’s calling over my life is not always without a challenge. I have spent the last two weeks working harder than ever. Waking up at the crack of dawn with my kids, doing my constant daily tasks, and going to bed at one in the morning so I can record songs and edit videos after the kids are asleep. It’s not simple but it is fun. I’m excited to see what God has in store. And He is no respecter of persons! He has fun exciting stuff in store for you as well! Write out your passions and dreams, form a plan to get them going, and commit the dreams to God

“Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and he will establish your plans.” (Proverbs 16:3 NKJV)
“The heart of man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps.” (Proverbs 16:9 ESV)

He already knows your desires and dreams! He wants to bring them to pass for His glory and according to His will because He delights in YOU!

Be sure to check out my original song “Deep Cries” and subscribe to my brand spankin’ new YouTube channel, laceingrace .

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